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After a while...

After a while,
you want to stop thinking
because it is 
a dead-end of thoughts.
You stop feeling
the cut-throat emotions at 3 a.m.
or the butterfly-in-your-belly joy
at little compliments from strangers.
Actually,
you stop trusting people
with your vulnerabilities.

After a while,
you stop asking
the 'hows' and the 'whys'
because no one really answers them.

After a while,
life is just an elaborate 
exercise of acceptance;
a never-ending numbness
So much that,
when you hit rock bottom,
you realize that the rock is your heart.

After a while,
your eyes that once glistened with dreams
appear blank, abandoned by tears.




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